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I have a best friend. He's pretty cool, for a nerd. We chat and laugh and he torments me and I torment him back. We're the best of friends but...

For the longest time I couldn't understand why he couldn't ever tell me things. I didn't understand why he never let me know what he was really thinking. He always said that he had to block out what he was feeling, no matter what that was. Today I found out why.

We were hanging out but instead of being my cheery, joking self I was gloomy. I had a lot on my mind, you see. My friends all asked me what was wrong. I told them I'd be fine just had a stomach ache, which was somewhat true. Course, my best friend here could see right through that. "Seriously, what's the matter?" He asked, with that look that says "Spit it out. You know I'm going to get it out of you eventually." I sighed, knowing that eventually I'd spill it all to him like usual. But then I got angry. "You never tell me anything so why should I tell you anything!? You never tell me or show how you really feel so why should I? " I yelled at him. He sat there for a moment, looking at me sadly. "Because when I was younger, about six or seven, my dad went to jail for stealing and my mom divorced him. I had to become the man of the house. I learned then that you have to hold back how you feel so you can be strong."

I stared back at him for the longest time before whispering, "I'm so sorry." and pulling him into a tight hug. He didn't show it but in his eyes I could see the sorrow. I held him close for as long as I could, letting him rest his head in the curve of my neck. There were so many things in my head now, replacing the sadness that I'd felt before with pity and sympathy and understanding. "I'm so sorry." I said again as I let him go. He smiled but the sadness in his eyes stayed. "It's okay. I was only mad about it for like month." Conversation switched to some lighter topic but my mind remained with him.

We're more alike than I thought. Neither of us were able to stay children for very long. And around the same time, too. How strange... And sad. I guess no one stays a child for long.
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:icontallcountryboy26:
TallCountryBoy26 Featured By Owner Jan 24, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I can relate to this a lot.
My mum was ill when I was 12 and now my Dad looks after her but I had to grow up there and then and lot's of people still say too me you are to mature Wayne you need to let go and be less serious about things but I cant be.
Don't feel to bad though you know a bit more about your friend know and thats a good thing trust me! :)
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:icontobbiegurl385:
TobbieGurl385 Featured By Owner Jan 24, 2013  Student General Artist
Thanks. I'm glad you relate. It is difficult growing up to fast, but I've dealt with it pretty well.
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TallCountryBoy26 Featured By Owner Jan 24, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Good life is complicated and often sad I try to think of the little things I like to help me get by I have a good and lucky life in the country but sometimes I am afraid I get very down.
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TobbieGurl385 Featured By Owner Jan 24, 2013  Student General Artist
I loved the country when I had it. It's been too long since I last drove down those roads... I really miss it. I miss the tall, yellow fields against the bright blue sky. I miss my horse. I miss laying in hay. I wish I could go back.
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TallCountryBoy26 Featured By Owner Jan 24, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Maybe one day you will!
Don't feel sad treat the memories as happy ones!
I would hate to think of a beautiful girl like you feeling sad! :)
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TobbieGurl385 Featured By Owner Jan 24, 2013  Student General Artist
That's so sweet.
They really were happy memories but when I think about them, I want to go back. I can't though. That time has long since past. When he left, so did my country heart and I know it's still with him, driving those long country roads and singing in the back of his truck. I don't miss him. I just miss the way things were when he was around.
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TallCountryBoy26 Featured By Owner Jan 24, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Your welcome I love your blue hair and your eyes! :)
Awww I feel for you I had my heart broken a few years back and still have not got over it. :(
Hope you find him and the country way of life again soon!
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:icontobbiegurl385:
TobbieGurl385 Featured By Owner Jan 24, 2013  Student General Artist
Me too. I know I'll be fine. I'm strong.

My hair isn't blue anymore but it was pretty cool when it was. It's actually black now. I should probably update my picture, huh?
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